Today was a day filled with ups and downs. I have never EVER in my life been through such an emotional roller coaster. There are times I feel like giving up, there are times I get so upset I just want to kill someone, there are times I feel so sad I cry my eyes out.

Today was the day I sat on the 360 roller coaster and my ride just ended.

Today in the morning, I had no mood at all to do anything I was so sad and it was so overwhelming and I almost could not control it, I held everything in. I had to I mean it's school, I don't want to be crying my eyes out in school it will be freaking retarded and loserish. So anyway I held everything in till I got to my house lift. I was seriously on the verge of breaking down.

I got home and started doing my work, but I was unsuccessful. I could not focus on anything. So I decided to take a 30 min nap, and then I prayed to God.

And then I fell asleep.

I woke up, had grapes for dinner and then I went back to my computer. I guess I was feeling better, and like just 5 mins ago I thought about the verse I read from the Bible in the morning, the title just woke me up. It was Romans 5:


PEACE AND JOY! That was what I have been lacking for the past days I have been trying to pick myself up with my own strength, but in actual fact God's hand was already there to pick me up from all my problems.

God's timing is perfect and he knows when to do what. And all my problems was lifted off my shoulder, I feel better now. I have been praying so hard that he would help me and God answers prayers! I know God does, but today when he answered my prayers, there was something special and amazing.

Lord I'm amazed by you.

And everyday I thank God for my friends that stood by me through the toughest times.

Random Thought: I CAN'T WAIT TO SPEND TIME WITH MY BESTIES. ONE LAST PAPER TMR (: