God is with me in the depths
If I go to the heavens,
you are there;
If I make my bed in the depths,
you are there.
Psalm 139:8

Sometimes life is hell.
That's how it feels.
It feels like we have taken up residence in hell.
Sometimes the darkness overwhelms us.
Sometimes we hurt so much that we can't imagine experiencing joy or peace ever again. Sometimes we seem to have 'made our bed ' in a place that God has deserted, a place from which God has turned away.

But the psalmist says 'even if I make my bed in the depths, you are there'.
There are no genuinely God-forsaken places on our journey.
There are no places unfamiliar to God.
It is a difficult and painful journey, but our lines of support are not stretched thin.
God is not at a distance.
He is with us.

If God is with us, we can travel through those dark times in recovery, those times in hell.
If God is with us, we can hold on through the difficult emotional and spiritual roller coaster of recovery.
No matter where I am, Lord you are with me.
If I am up, today. You are here. If I am down. You are here.
If I am very, very down. You are still here.
If I am very, very, very, very, very down. You are here.
Thank you.
Even in the terrible times when I am in the depths, you are there with me.
Your presence is a ray of hope in the dark times of my recovery.

Amen

Lord please help my current situation, that everything bewteen ____ and I will be alright again. I'm sorry for saying what I said to _____ and I pray that she will forgive me and that everything will be alright again. I pray that you will remove all the anger I had in my heart and I pray you remove whatever jealously I might carry in my heart. Please Lord, I really need you to help me patch things up with her. Amen.