The pass 8 months this year has been one of the most crazy, hectic months ever. It was the first time I was placed with so many things to do and this time around it was not church commitments but from school.

I have never been given 9 modules in half a semester before in my life, it has been seriously crazy and the worst thing is that it's not over yet. I only made it through halfway, there are projects, test and exams not completed yet.

In this 8 months too, I feel that I have drifted from the closest people in my life. My best friend Amanda left and personally it was not easy and it's still not easy now because I can't tell her so many things and show them to her because she's so far away. And Amanda leaving kind of made me feel very empty like something important to me was missing and people keep asking me if I miss her, OF COURSE I do, how can not miss my best friend? If Shu En left me today I think I would most likely loose it, and I would be a loner forever.

I also feel that I drifted from Daryl and Shaunald, my two closest friends in YE, I could not even plan FOP this year because of school and like I miss Dragon Boating and all that's why I feel that some of our bonds were broken because I could not make time for all these activities. It's not that I did not want to take part in it but it's just because I really had to get the grades in order to make it to Australia.

And yes, I know I have said I'm having second thoughts about leaving Singapore because everything I know and have is here and I would have to start from scratch again if I do get into Australia, but you know what? I'm not going to regret my decision, if God wants me to go to Australia then I would go. And to Paul, I'm not against you or anything but what you told me on Sunday was seriously very hurtful about me regretting going to Australia, How can you even say that to me? aren't friends supposed to support each other? like I know my life so far was filled with regrets and all but this time around me going to Australia I have a very strong feeling about it. But whatever it is, I'm going to forget what you said and never speak about it again.

The whole point of me blogging this was to let all you people know that if I have become more anti social or not enthu about stuff it's because I really want to make the grades and go to Overseas. Yup. well I hope everyone understands. I need moral support and not negative remarks about things.