Time and time again I think back and reflect about my life and yes I am thankful for certain things in life. But it's like all the major/important things they never go my way. I know, "God's Plan is not the same as yours" I keep hearing that, over and over again. But it does not tell me WHY IS MY LIFE ALWAYS FILLED WITH THINGS THAT I CAN'T STAND?!

I know your would say, oh it will make me stronger blah blah blah, but seriously speaking there is not much of a great impact. I'm so torned up inside because nothing I want goes my way. Ernest told me that day saying that he never gets what he wants. I know exactly how that feels, I know what it means by you are so close but yet so far. I'm like a kid with it's favourite toy but it just got taken away from me.

Today was the same feeling as the day I got my PSLE when I found out I will not be going to SCGS, this time my attachment company got changed. =( and i'm truly hurt, confused annoyed and I can seriously just jump off my block. why does this always happen to me, why do you give me something and before it starts you take it away from me? why?!

I hate it. I totally broke down in school because of how much anger I have in me. I just want to run away and never come back.