I have decided to write this today because I felt someone/something telling me to write this. :) if you don't want to rread this you can just read the ending. ;)

SCGS

It all started with me being place in the best school ever, SCGS. It was a true blessing and of course at that age I probably did not know what was happening and all and I did not really take studies as a priority in my life. I was more focused in other things in life, dance, friends and having fun. I believe very strongly in you reap what you sow.

So I ended doing really badly in PSLE. And I was so bad that I was sent to Normal Academic and it was not a very pleasant place to be because all my Church friends and SCGS friends were going to good schools and all in the special stream or the express stream.

For that I was thrown to Queensway secondary school, I had to give up my passion for dance and the other secondary school I was placed in did not offer dance as a CCA which was actually quite disappointing.

I think not many people know this but I actually appealed for many many secondary schools to get me into a Christian School, like St Mag or Fairfield but all of them just decided to "reject Melissa Day" haha, so I had to suck it up and face the music and to just go to QSS.

I had a lot of anger in me that I was being sent there, I was taken out of my comfort zone and I was placed with "the others" that's how proud I was, I thought as long as you do not belong to an elite school you are nothing!

First day sucked, there were boys roaming the halls of the school, so disgusting and everyone spoke a foreign language to me... CHINESE. I was obviously really confused and lost in school because not only was I in a neighbourhood school I was placed in the Normal Academic stream.

When I first stepped into my class, it never got better. I got teased for speaking English and being the good girl, but you can't blame me for being brought up this way in SCGS haha. I had to adapt quickly to this class in order to "fit in".

So I decided that if I joined a CCA maybe I can hang out with people from the express stream and maybe I will be able to clique with them, so I decided to join Choir, a low profile CCA but I always enjoyed singing, it was something I love to do besides dance. So I picked that up and I started meeting new people and nice people, I started being less angry with God and started to accept things and move forward and not harp on the past. I even met Joyce which is amazing because now she has been saved. :)

I did really well in Secondary Two and got promoted to the express stream! and became a prefect as well. After that, everything else pretty much fell into place till O levels came.

This was a second hit, I felt that maybe I got too comfortable with the fact that since everything is going well everything else in my life will just continue to be great and wonderful. But God does not like it when we lean on him only when we have problems and all.

O LEVELS

O Levels came and who does not want to get into a good school right? when I applied, I was hoping to get into at least one of my 12 choices, but sadly I did not. I did got rejected by not 1 choice but 12 different choices, How great is that seriously? I was thinking to myself can my day get any worst.

I was left with nothing, so I tried to appeal with my CCA and all but guess what? I did not get through that either.

But God's timing is perfect, he gave me a spot in Ngee Ann Poly and I really don't regret it. I made amazing friends and all.

Anyway, to cut it all short, this is what I want to say. ( talk so much crap then now tell us what you want to say) HAHA

here goes:

1. Sometimes we feel that whatever we want to do/get in life is what we have to do. But God's plans and thoughts are higher than ours. He knows us way better than anyone else. He created us, DUH HE SHOULD KNOW RIGHT? HAHA. And sadly his plans for us and our will not tally but we should accept that and take up with God has for us.
2. Sometimes when we are being thrown into something we do not enjoy, it takes time before you do and only at the end when you look back and reflect you will be able to see why God put you through whatever you thought might be hell.
3. Sometimes, we are being "brought around the entire world" to end up where we should be, but every different step that we take is a learning experience.
4. Through situations like these, it helps you grow as a person and you are able to see a lot things when you fall down and work your way up again.
5. God loves you very much, and he will give you what he KNOWS you can handle.
6. I feel that so far whatever that I was being put through all the ups and downs, I finally know what I'm supposed to do and even though I took the long route to find out, I'm glad I did it.
7. We must trust in God( not easy I know) I sometimes find it hard too and give it up to God but I always tell myself that God knows best and whatever comes your way and if you have a feeling to get on it! GET ON IT! don't have second thoughts, and even if it's something that sucks, you have a experience. :)
8. Prayer works! we need to be consistent in what we pray for and to ask God to show his plans for you. :)
9. It's through suffering that you are able to be stronger and to tell others about how great God has been in your life.

Now that I look back, I do not regret anything anymore. And from today onwards, I'm going to work hard in school and not disappoint anyone. :)

God knows the right way to go. :) lalalaal HAVE A GREAT DAYZ. I CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME AND SLEEP! AHHAA